It's raining....in my heart

There're lots had happened lately. Lots of terrible and painful things. Make me always wet in tears. Come to think about all of that, I have no idea on how long i could bare to hang on anymore. Why is it have to be me? Because of someone I helped, I have to be suffered with lots of problem. Am i the one to blame of what I have done kindly to others? I keep wondering what mistakes I have done that I have to deal with all these hardness.

I look up on the sky above,
Just dark and clear sky up there,
Not even a single star glittering tonight,
I keep searching, hope that i could fine one,
I want to make a wish,
A wish that i hope will end all my suffers....

No one know what I am facing with,
No one know how hard for me to deal with those painful,
Everyday seem no hope last for me,
I only can pray and wait for all these to end,
But how long will it take?
Still I am alone, waiting of any miracle to happen....

Sitting lonely in the dark,
make me wonder of how lucky I am,
Even without lots of wealth in hand
I am still standing and strongly can breath the air,
Only that hunger and sadness fill in me all the time,
Other than that, I barely can fight for my life.

Why am I not thinking of this in the beginning?
There's someone there watching and always beside me all the time,
HE is there, HE never left me alone,
HE grant me with strength and love,
that make me standing everyday,
guide me to find my virtue and win my fight.

Through the darkness around me,
I can hear my own voices from my heart,
Why am I feel so upset while I can rely on HIM?
HE is always by my side, to watch over me,
My heart fills with hope and love,
Even i could realize tears running down my face....
I pray to HIM to give me more strength and faith
so i could deal with all these painful and hardness.