Grandmother visit

It supposed to be a day of just me and my mother, my father and my sisters. Although I am not doing anything, I stayed home (so as now); doing house chores and others. It was a day after my father was not at home.

That day he came home early and said he got call from kampung; told that my grandmother is sick and need to bring to the hospital for check up and injection. That noon my mother is still not came home from school and my father had to rush to kampung. I am not went along so I stayed home and wait for later news of my sick grandmother. So that afternoon my mother is picked up by my sister. Late evening my father arrived home and guessed who is came along? My grandmother.

Looked at her condition, I could tell she got bad flu. My father had to bring her home because he can take care of her until she recovered. It is weekdays and it means working days; and that also it is me who will take care of her at home. I can't say no or objected for the task. It is just I am not so getting along with my grandmother. I don't know either she would allow me to take care of her. It is going to be a challenge for me as a daughter and a granddaughter.

But she only could stayed at my house for three days only. You know, old people can't stay away long from their own bed. But for the whole three days on took care of her, I have learn a lot. Old people is so sensitive and need more attention at all time. She may got little choosy but in the end I can understand her very much. I may have done great job in taking care of my beloved grandmother but one thing I will bear in mind that at any matters, mother will only want her children to take care of herself. That is the one most important cure for a sick mother.

So now, if you still have your mother with you, pleased her and try to make her comfortable because we don't know when she will be gone someday. Mother's love is the something we can't buy with money and her children are the best cure ever.

I always LOVE you, Mom!!

Searching for the Truth

Over and over the same thing happen to me. I don't know if I am done wrong or I am not able to do anything right at all. I admit, I am not coming from a rich family or a popular person during my years in school and I no beauty to impress with. I always and keep saying all these to any person who want to be friend with me, especially to man. But every time too they always say that it is not beauty or wealth that they seek. That is the beginning, all seems good and promising.

Then, in the middle of the new fresh relationship all those good and sweet talking become dull and exactly the opposite. For a small and tiny misunderstand, it somehow leading to a bigger crisis and more complicated. Not that the two heart have lose their love or faith to each other. The only thing that they might lost without they even know about is communication and trust.

How can a relationship will last long if those two heart seldom to talk and not believe in each other? To be loved and to love, one need to have trust and faith to his beloved. Love is not suppose to let his lover being sad or get hurt. To love someone with all your heart, you must learn how to accept her weakness and try to be comfort to each other. Tell her all your feelings and never skip anything that bears in your mind. If there is a secret not been told, even it only tiny matters then the relationship will never last for long.

This is what I try to look for, for all these years. I may have found the one man for me but he is not surely can accept me as who am I. He may said that I am beautiful not for the look of my face but he is attracted with my lovely heart. I don't know whether he is telling me the truth or just try to keep my heart for his. Now, I keep wondering to myself if I am ready to take seriously in this kind of relationship or just blindly belief those words that come from his mouth. But the one I am pretty sure that I have to listen to my heart. It is the only thing that I trust now, as there is still hope for me to keep this relationship last longer.

So close...but still so far

A good person will always be in MEMORY,
A better person will always be in DREAMs,
But the best person will always be in HEART.

Life is not always seem as we want it to be. As we plan for something, in the middle it turn out to be the other way. How can we expect from this life? No, nothing. What we can all do is keep trying and keep on moving. As one says, sometimes life is like a dark tunnel, you can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel but if you just keep moving, you will come to a better place which is more bright.

You may feel split about what you should be doing and what you want to do, thus you can ask someone to contribute to your end goal, allowing you to enjoy both accomplishment and celebration. What is important don't stop believing in yourself and what you can do. Success will be yours if you never quit and always want to achieve it by your own way.

There are so many things we want to achieve in our life. Job, branded items, accessories, house, honest friends, good food and also love. All those you want to get are not just by waiting or watching. Put some efforts and never give up to try. This is like when you like a girl, and u really want to know her and if you could you want to marry her. To get to know a girl you like so much then you much keep trying to get close to her, of course in a good way. Day after day, you would build a good and serious relationship with her and if the two of you can manage all the conflicts together and understanding each other, a marriage is not impossible to happen.

The future may be dependent on how others perceive you and what you do. Give your all and don't be afraid to ask for advice along the way. Just take the plunge and follow your dreams, desires, hopes and wishes. If you push your ideas and present what you have to offer with a little flair, you will attract the kind of attention required to reach you goals.

Following the teachings of our beloved Prophet s.a.w

To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.
I love you, not only for who you are,
but for what I am...as your faithful follower
It is only with the heart that one can see rightly.
He is the great idols through all the times.
Peace upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.

New Year gift >> A Man from London

Happy New Year to all!! Times sure does flowed fast. Another year had past and one more year to add. Do you have something good or interesting happened on your first day of new year? Well, I didn't say it is something special but it does makes me feel something will happen to me this year of 2011.

When I recall back, not even in my thought that i would have someone give me a surprise via my mailbox. Not even thinking that he would ask me to be his special friend. At first, i was thinking...is this a kind of joke? Just ignore him, I don't lose a thing. But despite that I've replied to his e-mail. I'm not the type of person who easily accept someone I don't know to be the person only for me. First of all I only want to be friendly to new people. Somehow this relationship become so much fun day after day. He helped me a lot and makes me happy. Although he is far away, we actually communicate everyday. That's what make him so special to me. A relationship will never mean anything if the two couple just barely speak to each other.

Other than that, I need a n honest, respectful and always keep promise kind of relationship. Whether it is a long distance or just in front of my eyes, I do wish he can be trust, nice and keep his words to me. All I want is he will always be at my side whenever I need him. Oh, did I mentioned that he is a muslim? Yes, he is. And I don't need any reason else (for now) for not to accept him. Anyway there're something else that I would have to consider as well. I do hope this is the best which HE is done for me.

Anyway, I wish this year will bring most joy and successful for me; as well to my family, my fellow friends and all of you out there. Be yourself, don't feel sad, share your feelings with someone u like and always think in positive way. In the end, you'll survive in any kind of relationship u have.

Long Distance Relationships : What Pro And Cons? Is it healthy?

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I can't stand it for another day
When you live so many miles away.
Nothing here is gonna make me stay,
(You) took me over, let me find a way.

Having someone you love and to be with the person is the greatest moment we ever want in our life. To have a good relationships is to be happy and to have a special someone to share your life with makes life worthwhile. But not all the relationships could have a good time, because of some reasons the couples have to stay apart. Surviving within a long distance relationship is most difficult and take hard work to keep it last longer.

Although it is a common that people who have a long distance relationships lead two separate lives, it is quite possible for two people to stay in touch everyday, plan their schedules together, and share their lives in spite of the distance that separates them. Living in this kind of relationship requires very strong trust, commitment, guidelines, and communication. Studies show that a majority of people involved in long distance relationships eventually break up. But it is not impossible to keep and live with it.

Long distance relationships, can actually be quite fun if two people are staying away for a short period of time, the duration is crucial but so is the attitude. Patience is one of the virtues that the couples will acquire if they learn to manage a long distance relationship. Other than that, the couple must keep in touch as often as they could. Of course it is an inexpensive way to stay in touch. The recipient can keep the letter and read it any time they miss you and need a hug. But you also can send more than letters, use e-mail or have a video call sometimes. Try to find the best way to connect to your love, in that way you'll keep the relationship alive and last long.

The most important in LDR is, to be honest and encouragement. In any condition, you must be honest and trust your love. If there are unsatisfied matter, do not keep it. Never avoid any assumption, say whatever u want to say. In that way, your partner will always know your feelings. Also always become the one who remind your love that both of you will survive for long relationships. Last but not least, always think positive and be happy in your life. You never know how wonderful and fun you can make by having a long distance relationships.

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For all my life, I always thinking that this kind of relationship only take place in movies or novels. But it seems might happened to me. Oh, what am I going to do about this? I've no experience nor idea how to make this relationship work and last long.

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It's raining....in my heart

There're lots had happened lately. Lots of terrible and painful things. Make me always wet in tears. Come to think about all of that, I have no idea on how long i could bare to hang on anymore. Why is it have to be me? Because of someone I helped, I have to be suffered with lots of problem. Am i the one to blame of what I have done kindly to others? I keep wondering what mistakes I have done that I have to deal with all these hardness.

I look up on the sky above,
Just dark and clear sky up there,
Not even a single star glittering tonight,
I keep searching, hope that i could fine one,
I want to make a wish,
A wish that i hope will end all my suffers....

No one know what I am facing with,
No one know how hard for me to deal with those painful,
Everyday seem no hope last for me,
I only can pray and wait for all these to end,
But how long will it take?
Still I am alone, waiting of any miracle to happen....

Sitting lonely in the dark,
make me wonder of how lucky I am,
Even without lots of wealth in hand
I am still standing and strongly can breath the air,
Only that hunger and sadness fill in me all the time,
Other than that, I barely can fight for my life.

Why am I not thinking of this in the beginning?
There's someone there watching and always beside me all the time,
HE is there, HE never left me alone,
HE grant me with strength and love,
that make me standing everyday,
guide me to find my virtue and win my fight.

Through the darkness around me,
I can hear my own voices from my heart,
Why am I feel so upset while I can rely on HIM?
HE is always by my side, to watch over me,
My heart fills with hope and love,
Even i could realize tears running down my face....
I pray to HIM to give me more strength and faith
so i could deal with all these painful and hardness.